_ Coming Clean .

A lot on my mind & on my heart .
Many emotions rushing back after seeing your face ,
that I'm not sure are mutual .
Regardless -- I live my life w/ ME in mind .
Yu kno where to find me if yer heart starts to miss me .
I'll never turn away or forget about what we had .
Keep that in mind if yu ever start to feel the same .

_ Reality Check .

Focus , Motivation & Determination .


Sometimes we hit a time in our lives when those are the only three things that can pull us through . I've reached a point in my life where I've seen & been through more than your average person , & I've realized that I can rely on no one but myself . & even I unintentionally deceive myself from time to time . Sometimes your emotions get in the way of what you know is best for you -- But you go ahead & continue to follow your heart instead of your instincts . Sometimes whats best for you , isn't always what you want & it tears you up inside to know that ; But if its meant to be , it will come back no matter what . No matter how long it takes , or how far life may take you from it -- It will always find you again if it was truly meant . Your dreams are never out of reach . All you need is focus , motivation & determination to achieve them .

_ So Much To Say ;

But some things are just better left

unsaid .

_ My New Found Wifey .<3

Phaha ! Ok so this bitch is absolutely amazing !(:
Honestly , our conversations are the best lol .
We're so damn in tune its ridiculous ;
She says I take the words right out of her heart , lol .
My Mrs. Lopez <3

_ Cant Face Reality .

Having a hard time walking away , so I just stand still w/ my back turned .

_ Obama .

Obama , first blk president --
Finally damn it lol .

_ Honestly ,

My backs against the wall .

_ Have Yu Ever ?.

Have yu ever had something tht yu wntd more then anything , but kno yu cant have right now because its really not the best thing for yu ?, However waiting is an option tht yu'd rather just rule out all together , but yer left w/ no other option BUT to wait ? Kinda where Im at right now . Stuck between what I want & what I need . Hopefully what I want doesn't slip away from me while I'm getting what I need . So I occupy my time & push my feelings aside to keep my mind off of what seems to be so far out of my reach & only time will tell what will become of this once so strong craving . So now I sit w/ nothing but a pocket full of anticipation .

_ So Far In `09 ,

I've learned to stop stressin about the bullshit & little things in life .

I became a cold , heartless bitch ;
& I know it , so reminding meeh about it wont do shit , so just stop .
Everything I do is for a reason , whether it makes sence to yu or not .
Whether yu agree w/ what i do , say or think --
Ima do meeh regaurdless & not give a fck to whatchu gotta say .
Im over the bullshit yall lames bringin to the table .
So I guess its back to the basics for meeh kids .
`09 is my year , fck all tha bullshit -- Dnt like me ? GREAT !
Shit dnt phase meeh ;

Why yu worried bout meeh doin meeh ?
Lets see yu doing yu -- Get off my shit .